Getting Healthy

my journey to a better, healthier me

A New Home

I’ve decided to combine this blog with my other one. My other blog has mostly been a book blog for the last year. But, I’ve discovered that I miss blogging just to blog. So, I’m turning it back into a personal one. And, because of that, that means I can put all my getting healthy stuff there as well.

As far as progress since my last post, I’m finally back on track. I’ve started watching what I’m eating again. And, while I gained my 11 lbs. back plus two more after the loss of Cassie by not watching anything I ate, binging, and eating only crap for the most part, I’ve lost 5.8 lbs. in the last four days.

I’m going strong and I intend to keep it up. I know it’s hard to believe me because I’ve lost weight before and then gained it all back (the 13 lbs. in the last month is a pittance to a couple of years ago), I’m determined to see this through and change my lifestyle. I’m sick of always feeling bad. I’m sick of having no energy. I’m sick of being sick. And, the only way those things are going to change is by me taking the reins and being responsible for how I treat my body. Wish me luck and I’ll see you at my new home!

PS–I’ll be moving all the posts and comments from this blog over to my other blog as well. If you want to comment on this post, you’re more than welcome to.

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I’m Still Here

I just wanted to post a quick update letting you know I’m still here. The last few weeks have been crazy. I was sick for a while and didn’t feel like doing much of anything. And then, a week ago, my husband’s grandmother passed away. She was a wonderful woman and I’m glad I got to know her for the short time that I did. Needless to say, it has been an emotionally exhausting few days as our family put her to rest and said our goodbyes.

There may be a few changes to this blog in the near future. I’ll let you know when I make my decision. And, I feel like I’m in a better state emotionally now and I feel like I can start getting back into the swing of things on my journey to becoming healthier. After hearing Grandma Bea’s life story at her funeral, I feel inspired to get out of this funk. She was active until the end and passed away at 94. I want to be like her.

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New Sleep Regimen Update

I’ve been doing the new sleep regimen for about a week now. I didn’t follow it on Friday or Saturday, but I figured who follows their sleep regimen on the weekend when they don’t have work or school?

Last week, I felt really tired. But, I think that’s because I started to force myself to get up when my alarm went off, not after I snoozed it for an hour. Today, I feel okay. I’m still tired because getting up at 6:00 in the morning is tiring when you’re not a morning person. But, I feel more refreshed!

Also, not sticking to my regimen on the weekend helped me see something. Even though I was dead tired by the time I went to bed on Friday and Saturday, it still took me forever to fall asleep. I don’t know if that’s because my melatonin was inhibited by the electronics I was glued to or what. But, I didn’t have a hard time falling asleep last night or Thursday night; I actually fell right asleep. I didn’t lie awake in bed for over and hour wondering why I couldn’t fall asleep like I usually do. I’ll take that as an improvement!

Now, we need to work on staying asleep at night.

 

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New Sleep Regimen

One of the things that contributes to my general feeling of ennui is that I’m always tired. I have a hard time staying awake most days. I fall asleep at work and I often fall asleep only two hours after waking up on the weekends. It’s got to stop!

The last time I was visiting my niece and her family, her husband mentioned a study that shows people who use electronics withing two hours of bedtime don’t sleep well. The light interferes with the body’s natural production of melatonin, which is what helps you sleep. I found an article about it in USA Today.

I’ve decided to do an experiment and see if my constant connectivity of all things media is really contributing to my poor sleep. I started doing the following last night, but I’m going to continue throughout the month of February to see if I notice a difference in how well I sleep at night:

  • Go to bed no later than 10:00 pm, preferably 9:30 pm
  • Stop using all electronic devices, except possibly listening to soothing music or reading on my Kindle since it’s not back-lit, by 7:30 pm*
  • Read, crochet/knit, spend quality time with Corey, or do something non-electronic to pass the time before going to bed
  • Charge my cell phone downstairs and put it on silent so there are no distractions from it
  • Use an actual alarm clock to wake me up each morning instead of the alarm on my cell phone

Hopefully, doing these things will help. I’ll add the other things suggested in the article as time goes on as well. I just really wanted to make changes to the electronic portion of my sleep regimen because I’m sure it’s a huge factor as I’m always connected to some device right before bedtime, sometimes even in bed.

*If I find that music and my Kindle are doing damage to my sleep, then I’ll stop them by 7:30 pm as well.

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Depression Sucks

A few months ago, my dear friend Rachel posted something about depression on her blog. It really struck a chord with me because as many of you know, I’ve struggled with depression since I was about 14 years old.

Anyway, she shared a couple of pictures and a link from a post about what it feels like to be depressed by Hyperbole and a Half. I wanted to share them as well because I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. As a small warning, the post I’m linking to has some language and is very long. But, I highly recommend it if you want to know what depression feels like. It’s very accurate, at least for how I feel/have felt.

Why did I share this? Because right now, I’m severely depressed. I feel like I’ve regressed a lot. Last year, I know I did when I stopped following my healthy lifestyle and let other things get in the way of that. And, then when Cassie passed away a week and a half ago, I was thrown into a downward spiral. I’m just waiting to crash and burn. I want to try to stop it before it goes that far … if I can.

Logically, I know I shouldn’t be this depressed. I know I got to have Cassie for 13.5 years! That’s 13.5 years more than I could have had him. I know he’s better off where he is. I know he’s happy and he’s not suffering. I know I’ll see him again. Those reasons should be enough to make me happy, right?

Emotionally, however, it’s a completely different story. I’m feeling all kinds of different things. I keep wondering why he had to die so young. (I know 13.5 isn’t “young” but it is when you realize that some cats live to be 20.) I also keep wondering why my time with him was cut short, why I can’t have him back, why he had to get sick in the first place, etc. I also feel abandoned by some family and some friends who don’t seem to understand the gravity of my devastation.

I know I should be able to just get over my depression and move on. I know I should be able to be happy. But, I can’t. At least I don’t know how to with this kind of depression and heartache. Even though I’d wish this pain on no one, I’m glad Corey is feeling the same way so I don’t have to go through it alone like I’ve had to do with my depression for most of my life.

I want to be back to my old self again. I want to care about things. I want to have the energy and gumption to get up and do something other than the mundane (work, school, TV). I want to be able to put forth the effort into becoming healthy again. I know I felt better when I was. I want to enjoy life again. But, all that seems so far away and hard to do right now.

I guess I just need to remember that most people in my situation don’t even want to change and at least I do. That’s a step in the right direction. In the words of Bob from What About Bob?: “Baby steps to [getting healthy again].”

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